Okay, so I am going to try to keep myself in line for a couple of minutes to get it out! I absolutely hate the feeling of being in love. Being in love so much that it hurts! Okay, let me tell ya about it.
So, yes, I am gay! If thats a problem for you, you might as well stop reading. No, my being gay doesn't reflect on you, or have anythnig to do with you, it's me. I don't want to hear I'm going to go the hell and all that AIDS is for faggots shit, I've heard it, and piss off.... With that off my chest, back to the love thing. I've been seeig this guy for two months now, his name is Bryan. Two months may not seem like a long time, but for a gay relationship it is an eternity (and thats a shame actually!!). This boi is everything that I have been looking for: smart, goal driven, done playing the "game," and did i mention cute? He makes me smile when I think of him, blah, blah, blah. The only problem I am having is that he has been dicked over before by some other guys, and hence it is now me that has to deal with it. All the guys that have cheated on him and basically treated him like a dog have made him simply not trust me. He doesn't like any of my friends, and at times can be a pompus ass. I hate all of the people that he has dated because of this. His attitutde is put up because he doesn't want to be hurt again, understandable, right? Well, the problem that I have is that I didn't do it! All of the relationships that I have been in have ended very amicable (did i spell that right?). I have always been friends with the people that I have dated, any maybe thats odd, but I like it that way. I simply hate everyone out there that decided that hurting someone during in a relationshipi is okay. Well, it's fucking not. It't not fair to me because I don't treat people like shit! I could rant for hours about this, but I won't! I just don't know what to do. How do I help him out. How do I get him to trust me?? I know time will help that out, but it's so damn hard. It's hard trying to tell someone, "Look, I don't do that to people. I don't treat people like shit," when all they have ever been treated like is that! Oh well, that is why I am asking, Is this love, or simply a slow death wating to happen????